26.3.10
okay, WHY?!
25.3.10
I love alex!
and his ultra-expressive behavior.
CHECK THIS OUT!!
quotes
some of my favorite quotes i got from tumblr:
(I'll update this everytime i find a new interesting one)
You can fake your way through any conversatiton in the same way that any girl can fake an orgasm. random sounds and correct timing (mhm and huh are the new ohh and yeah)
(this is for those people with lack social skills)
Making someone love you is difficult, maybe think about getting a puppy.
(It's easier for anyone of us who has lost faith in love)
Life's a dick. sometimes it gets hard for no reason.
(My personal favorite quote)
Period pains? try getting a boner in jeans.
(Okay, never thought of it that way. fair enough)
It's nice to be important, but it's more important to be nice!
(That's for you, bitch!)
As bad as losing faith in humanity seems, losing your faith in happy endings is much worse.
(Oh, okay. my bad.)
The world will not end in 2012, and if we're wrong, we'll all be dead anyways and there's nothing you can do about it.
(Yep. so true!)
Don't judge a book by it's movie!
(Harry Potter, Percy Jackson, Da Vinci Code.. oh, too much!!)
Live with no guilty pleasures, dance in your underwear, listen to spice girls, and eat ice cream from the tub and be damn proud!
(Maybe not spice girl in my case, but westlife.)
We know your boss is an idiot and your job is meant for mentally challenged twelve year old. either quit or stop complaining.
(Stop complaining. did it.)
You don't need a boyfriend or girlfriend. better to be alone than with a whiney bitch you never wanted to be in the first place.
(oooohhhh... so true! that's why i'm single.. :D)
True friends are like a four leaf clover. difficult to find, lucky to have
(Yep)
Stalking the person you like is not endearing and will not get you laid.
(lesson's learned)
Stop bitching about people pronouncing your name improperly and get a better name.
(So far, Litya has transformed into: Lidya, Nitya, Widia, Pidia, Ditya, an so on. but i love my name, so i'll fuck off)
Stop lying to yourself: you will not stay friends with your ex and you don't even want to anyways.
(This occur to only one ex. hahaha)
A fancy camera does not stop you from doing stupid things like cutting off heads. so no, a nice camera does not make you a photographer.
(To all those people with SLR who bought it only because they can afford it, not because they can use it)
Electricity comes from electron. therefore morality comes from morons.
(Like this!)
Some people are wise, some people are otherwise.
(Way to point it out)
In heaven, all the interesting people are missing.
(Come to think of it, it's true!)
Apparently people don't like it when you only want them for their Gatorade.
(Of food, or time, or help. this is for every licker who suck my ass for their own profits)
you must have money to make money
(Means, you have to be someone's bitch before you can afford you own food)
A friend in need's a friend indeed. a friend with weed is better
(Hahaha)
We know you had a shitty day, no need to make 20 thousand new posts about it.
(I just made 1 post in facebook and the other one as my status on ym)
You never stop loving someone, you just learn to live without them.
(True.)
Macs are not the best computers ever, people only buy them because they're cute.
(No offense Bobi, but it's true. i love you still though.)
Don't watch movies that you know will have some sort of nudity in them with you parents/family.
(How would i know it's uncensored?!)
Typin lyke diz dos nt make u kool
(Di5 d03sn't w0rk 3ither. so stop it!)
If your bathroom smells like shit, don't spray air freshener in it. that'll only make it smell like flowers and shit. which is worse.
(HAHAHAHA. my office bathroom. too bad there's no window)
Not everyone looks good with a mustache.
(Some of you guys will only look like cat fish. and it works for goatee too)
*http://twitter.com/wegotwisdom*
24.3.10
so today
- i accidentally open a porn site titled "kaki sofa" thank god no one was around. that could be so embarrassing.
- i found a lot of real-world quotes that relate a lot to me and people around me (i'll post it all later)
- but the most random thing i found today was this guy from NL. i listened to his music and i like it. absolutely the kind of music i love. (check it out yourself)
- Even this guy's music still can't stop me from wanting to kill somebody.
- I realize i deserve a "prize" after this hard week.
- i want to say something more about my work, but it wont be save until i'm done, so, i'll put all work-related-post into drafts for a while
23.3.10
this is my last confession
okay, i don't know where to start, so i'll babbling out and we'll see if i can put it all together ..
it's a common sense of how much i hate him, and how much he used to be obsessed about me. seriously. he used to use these lousy reasons just to hang out with me, which on my part, i tried to give him a chance, because i've always wanted to have good relationships with my ex-bfs.
but then, i realized, every time he looked at me in the eye, he stared at me as if he wanted to eat me alive, and i have to honest, that was soooo uncomfortable.
now, some people asked: "why do you hate him?"
and it's only fair if i explain. so here goes:
- i hate the way he controlled my life. he dragged me down to a bank to made a joint account together, and made me believe, that's what we needed.
- he made me believe i wanted to have a future with him.
- the way he pointed out how much children he wanted to have later, and made sure that if i only want two kids, i'll be lonely and never learned to share.
- i hate the way he never respect me (i'm too ashamed to explain this one)
- i hate the way he always put his friends on the highest rank. he pushed me to help him to made this birthday present for his best friend, i was sick that time, but he didn't care, all he wanted to know was the present should be ready before midnight.
- i hate the way he mock me with my cooking skill
- i hate the way he mock me with my (i remember his word) non-challanging projects.
- i hate the way he look down on me when i feel like crying when i bumped into something in my life.
- i hate the way he acted like he's always the mature one, the way he thought he knew that his decision was always the best
- i hate the way he tried to made me feel guilty if i wanted to eat in some fancy place just because he couldn't afford it.
- i hate the fact that he robbed me, 20 days a month to pay for his food. i couldn't save any money back in those days.
- i hate the fact he didn't really respect my parents.
- i hate that he didn't appreciate my present for his birthday, as if he's capable of paying me back in that particular area.
- i hate the fact he thought he could always calm me down only by staring at me with the "i know you, i love you, stop being a baby" look.
- i hate it that he forgotten my birthday. leave alone came to my house in the middle of the night. not even a present--not until now. (this is beyond my senses)
- I hate the way he said "you did nothing to help me." when he was too hectic about his final project.
- i hate the way he always been emotional for stuff that doesn't seem that big of a problem
- i hate the fact that his father didn't like me.
- i hate the fact he thought everything will be back the same again if he knocked on my door with blueberry cheese cake the day after the very tragedy.
- I hate him, for everything he was, he is, and anything that he will be.
it's not fair to blame it all on him, i had the biggest mistake here, and i know what mistake that was..
he's my rebound guy, and i just realized this problem after we went out for like a year.
i never loved him, but i tried to tell him that every time i got a chance to lied.
i didn't want a future with him, but i let him drag me there, just so we didn't have to have a long conversation.
i never sure about him. financially, mentally. just never.
and the biggest mistake was,
i didn't want to break up with him only because i think the time wasn't right, i didn't want to screw up with his final project and his future, because i don't think i want to be responsible for someone's future that i don't care about.
so, now i've told my reasons, my story.
this is the point where i'll pretend i never knew him.
because when i said things out loud, that means i admit stuff i only said to myself
now it's here, written, memorized, and being read.
and therefore i owe nothing to myself, not anymore.
22.3.10
i cried to this song (always)
Don't, you don't have to save my life
No, you're not ready I can feel it
Outside it's raining, but I'll just go home
Someday your heart will just let him go
As soon as you get that feeling
You can start to live again
As soon as the worst is over
You can make it all make sense
Right now I can't give you what you need
As soon as you get that feeling... run to me
Hush, you don't have to say a word
Trust, I'm not going to hate you for it
Feels like my touch only brings back the pain
Someday those memories will fade away
As soon as you get that feeling
You can start to live again
As soon as the worst is over
You can make it all make sense
Right now I can't give you what you need
As soon as you that feeling... run to me
How can I be brave enough to say good-bye
I’d die inside without you, oh
Can't you see it's hard enough to walk away
Don’t look at me you make me wrong,
I’ve been through this to make me strong
As soon as you get that feeling
You can start to live again, oh
As soon as the worst is over
You can make it all make sense
Right now I can’t give you what you need
As soon as you get that feeling,
As soon as you get that feeling…run to me
21.3.10
19.3.10
how they met.
I think i'll never be on your side..
said the same thing about that lady.
he said, "yeah, well, that's her."
i don't need a translation to understand he doesn't like her.
well, as intern, i have to ask a lot of people what to do, who's to call, etc..
and one day, i got an order from her to get myself into one project..
it's a pleasure for me, the fact that she trusted me.
but..
this task was a little bit more complicated than what i usually have,
i asked my colleague advice, also asked her advise..
my colleague said this, and she said that..
then she pointed out some clue for me about her feelings toward my colleague
the fact that she doesn't like him either..
now, i'm not an ass-sucker so i just smiled and think in my head,
"it's not him, it's you!"
no matter what she said, i'm always on the same side as my colleague,
because what he sees, is exactly what i see..
and i believe he's seen it longer that i do..
16.3.10
13.3.10
this saturday..
12.3.10
in my language we call it "gemes"
i shouldn't think about it, because it's obviously not my business, but somehow i can't help not to think of this old saying "once a jerk always a jerk".
seriously:
good looking?
NOPE.
charming?
Don't think so
good smell?
really, you use one piece of cloth for a whole year.
romantic?
HAHAHAHA
Respect women?
No evidence.
responsible?
Not at all
pain in the ass?
ABSOLUTELY
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Full of bullshit?
YES.
Smelly?
Yes
use the women to pay for his food?
believe me, i know.
sexy??
I think i wanna barf.
smart?
nope, but very--like really really--idealistic.
Softly bespoken?
not al all. Talks like barbarian
hypocrite?
YES!!
then tell me how could he posses (last i heard) 3 different women at the same time, one of them is hopelessly in love with him--i think she has stepped on the land of pathetic--and the rest just have no idea what game he's been playing.
come on! for crying out loud! stop all the jerkiness and just mess your with own life. asshole.