envious

this is ridiculous!

I'm ashamed of it to be honest..

that's why I'm not gonna "explain" what's it all about (no, it's not about boys, just so you know)

but I envy everyone who gets "it"

I've never got "it" not even once..

the time it was so special was like 13 years ago, when I was 8.

and what makes me angry sometimes is the fact that those people who usually get "it" never seem to care or appreciate what they have.