the tickets are now diamonds! i'm on a horse!!


Yes, of course Mother.

you can use my room.
you also can expand your bookshelves here
why? because i don't live here.
of course, you need more space for his smart books.

of course you may be proud,
he's got all the tittles and glories.

of course you can judge,
what am i doing anyway?
I'm just someone who wants to be a designer.
drawing is all i do. it's a piece of cake.

and yes, Mother.
if i failed to give you two front seats on my graduation
that will be my biggest failure,
because it's so damn easy to get straight As.

But please, Mother.
open your eyes, I'm not him,
not the golden boy.


Holland village, 25th July 2010

outside the ice cream parlor
friendly neighborhood
cute young couples holding hands
with their cute children(when they aren't screaming) running along

i want that, someday.
this too shall pass.


too much

too many cute things i want to buy
too little money i have left.

singapore is obviously hell for me right now. ToT


it's okay if you want to do this too

Bold the truths:
I am a morning person.
I am a perfectionist.
I am an only child.
I am Catholic.
I am currently in my PJs.
I am currently pregnant.
I am currently suffering from a broken heart. (how could it be broken if i've bee single for more than a year)
I am left handed.
I am married.
I am addicted to MySpace.
I’m shy around the opposite sex.
I bite my nails.
I currently regret something I have done. (or i HAVEN'T and/or DIND'T do)
When I get mad I curse.
I don’t like anyone.
I enjoy country music.
I enjoy jazz music.
I have a car. (not of my own)
I have a cell phone.
I have a pet.
I have at least one brother or sister.
I have been to another country.
I have been told that I’m smart.
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humour.
I have had a broken bone.
I have caller ID on my phone.
I have changed a lot over the past year.
I have had surgery.
I have killed another person.
I have had my hair cut within the last week.
I have had the cops called on me.
I have kissed someone I knew I shouldn’t.
I have kissed someone of the same gender.
I have mood swings.
I have rejected someone before.
I have seen the Lord of the Rings trilogy.
I have watched Sex and the City.
I like Shakespeare.
I love to cook.
I love Michael Jackson.
I love sleeping.
I love to shop.
I miss someone right now.
I own over 100 CDs.
I own over 100 DVDs.
I own and use a library card.
I practice a religion that is not considered mainstream.
I read books for pleasure in my spare time.
I sleep a lot during the day.
I strongly dislike math.
I think Britney Spears is pretty.
I will try ALMOST anything once.
I work at a job that I enjoy. ( i enjoy being a student)
I would classify myself as ghetto.
I can name all seven dwarfs from Snow White.
I am currently wearing socks.
I am tired.
I am currently waiting for someone.
I lost contact with someone.
I hate Miley Cyrus
I think Party In The USA is catchy.
I’d date Harry Potter.
I can name all the past presidents of the United States.
I know who was president before George Bush.
I love pickles.
I need the internet to live.
I prefer vanilla over chocolate.
I watched Star Trek.
I watched all six movies of Star Wars.
I own an Xbox.
I think music is life.

Acceptance. Coldplay. Dave Matthews Band. David Bowie. Foo Fighters. Hellogoodbye. The Killers. James Blunt. Teddy Geiger. Linkin Park. Muse. Ok Go. Panic! At The Disco. Peter Bjorn. The Postal Service. Timbaland. Jack Johnson. Norah Jones. Drake. The Fray. The Wreckers. Michael Buble. BeyoncĂ©. Metallica. Massive Attack. Queen. Journey. The Cars. Supertramp. Eurythmics. Sublime. The Red Hot Chili Peppers. Wu-tang Clan.Fergie. Sarah McLachlan. Band of Horses. John Mayer. Jason Mraz. Justin Timberlake. Michael Jackson.Kenny Chesney. Carrie Underwood. Clay Aiken. Lynyrd Skynyrd. Neil Young. The Beatles. Brad Paisley. Tim McGraw. Taylor Swift. P. Diddy. Jay Z. Lil’ Wayne. Lil’ Jon. Three 6 Mafia. Nelly. Young Joc. T.I. Sean Paul. 50 Cent. Eminem. Eiffel 65. Ace of Base. The Underdog Project. Dream Theater. Santana. Alicia Keys. Incubus. Victor Wooten. Ludacris. Gorillaz. Matchbox 20. Paramore. Say Anything. Taking Back Sunday. Eric Clapton. The Darkness. Weezer. The Eagles. Jimi Hendrix. Maroon 5. Billy Joel. Reel Big Fish. Anberlin. Mae. Family Force 5. AC/DC. Hootie and the Blowfish. Electric Six. Outkast. R.E.M. The White Stripes. Prince. Mika. Crystal Castles. Britney Spears. Spice Girls. The Gossip. Lady GaGa. Nirvana. Smashing Pumpkins. Third Eye Blind. Metro Station. Motion City Soundtrack. The Rocket Summer. Tenacious D. Something Corporate. The Moldy Peaches. Macy Gray. Mandy Moore. Plain White T’s. Yeah Yeah Yeahs. My Chemical Romance. Fall Out Boy. We the Kings. The Rolling Stones. Angels & Airwaves. The Beastie Boys. Black Eyed Peas. Boys Like Girls. Jonas Brothers. Demi Lovato. Selena Gomez. The Cure. Cobra Starship. Death Cab for Cutie. Deftones. Team Sleep. Filter. Goo Goo Dolls. Honor Society. Katy Perry. Kid Cudi.

Pride and Prejudice. Glory Road. The Princess Bride. Goonies. Center Stage. Ocean’s Eleven. Seven. Newsies. 300. Robin Hood Men In Tights. Love Actually. Garden State. Donnie Darko. MindEternal Sunshine of the Spotless. My Best Friend’s Wedding. Anchorman. Drop Dead Gorgeous. Wedding Crashers. Elf. Zoolander. Austin Powers. Clueless. Mean Girls. Hairspray. Moulin Rouge. Fight Club. Rocky. Pulp Fiction. What A Girl Wants. Kill Bill. Thank You For Smoking. Little Miss Sunshine. Requiem for a Dream. The Departed. Dawn of the Dead. Memento. The Lovely Bones. 17 Again. 8 Mile. Office Space. Snakes on a Plane. Boondock Saints. Say Anything. The Silence of the Lambs. Saving Private Ryan. Superbad. The Prestige. Just Friends. The Devil Wears Prada. Under the Tuscan Sun. Titanic. Steel Magnolias. Saw. Ace Ventura. She’s the Man. Because I Said So. Catch and Release. Music and Lyrics. Spanglish. Stick It. Step Up. The Fast and the Furious. Joyride. Halloween. The Italian Job. Crash. Must Love Dogs. The Last Kiss. Chicago. Harry Potter. Rush Hour. Breakfast at Tiffany’s. Clerks. Shooter. The Bourne Identity. Meet the Parents. Dirty Dancing. A Christmas Story. Rudy. National Treasure. Sleepless in Seattle. Miss Congeniality. The Science of Sleep. The Matrix. Everything is Illuminated. Good Will Hunting. Bill and Ted’s Excellent Adventure. Empire Records. Phantom of the Opera. Lord of the Rings. Click. Scarface. District 9.

ER. Grey’s Anatomy. Saved by the Bell. Man vs. Wild. Scrubs. South Park. America’s Next Top Model. Gossip Girl. Sex and the City. Friends. Dawson’s Creek. The Big Bang Theory. Seinfeld. The Office. Lost. Miami Ink. Made. Arrested Development. That 70’s Show. Family Guy. The Simpsons. Veronica Mars. Project Runway. Bones. Iron Chef. Alias. Pushing Dasies. Gilmore Girls. The Colbert Report. The Daily Show. Mythbusters. Avatar: The Last Airbender. Will and Grace. 24. House. To Catch A Predator. Whistler. Heroes. Aqua Teen Hunger Force. Unsolved Mysteries. 7th Heaven. Everybody Loves Raymond. Boston Legal. Bleach. What I Like About You. Reba. King of Queens. Survivor. The O.C. American Idol. Days of Our Lives. How I Met Your Mother. CSI. Boy Meets World. Law and Order. Numbers. Reno 911. I Love New York. Step by Step. Little People Big World. What Not To Wear. My Wife and Kids. Moonlight. Supernatural. Ace of Cakes. White Collar. Nip/Tuck. The Biggest Loser. Beauty and the Geek. Battlestar Galactica. Stargate SG1. The Inferno. Scarred. Wild N Out. Real World. Whose Line is it Anyway?. Trinity Blood. Dead Like Me. Dragon Ball Z.Futurama. Firefly. Medium. Star Trek. X-files. Cowboy BeBop. Sailor Moon. My Name is Earl. Six Feet Under. Dancing With The Stars.Degrassi. Greek. Glee. Secret Life of the American Teenager. The Hills. Laguna Beach. Vampire Diarie

Lolly and Deedee

are off to Singapore tomorrow.
Tendy's traveling around Yogja.

with tight budget, hope we'll make it. :E


one of my biggest regret.

on a short ferry ride from Calais to London.
McAvoy guy with green eyes, and his ipod and such sincere smile.
it doesn't happen everyday in my life when a cute guy smiled at me,
so yeah, I'm curious to find out his name

if only my mind would connect faster to send "smiling neuron" to my brain.
(and no, I'm not a stalker, just a curious girl.)

*he rides a forest green Peugeot 206,
with a sticker said "I brake for kobolds"
plate number X-JP-563 [B]
I thought he's france,
but after i wiki Kobolds and the plate number
i think he's a Germany who came from Berlin



*I'm waiting for the uploaded photos*

Happy lulus cichaa!!!
promise us to wear those outfit and your toga on our (me and boy) graduation day. good luck with the real life, we'll catch up with you (hopefully) very soon.


dear no one,

and to my surprise,
it really bothers me.

Don't get me started

when i was in London, i got this book in the second hand bookstore for only 50 pence. that costs around IDR 6500,- and although the review in the internet was bad (one star) i personally think it's hilarious. the way he expresses the annoyance around him with such flat cynical tone was actually the true humor for me.
anyway, i lent this book to Boy and she loved it too, and we inspired to write our own annoyance towards our everyday live in Indonesia. hope we can complete this "challenge" that we made for ourselves.


this is what happened

when 3 single girls gathered almost in the middle of the night,
waiting for a foot ball match to begin.
i really want Netherlands to win,
(means that the Dutch will try to attack his "gawang" and he'll get a lot of close-up shoot)
although Paul said Spain will win.


there i said it.

*happy birthday to me*



sparen me van mij. ik ben vermoeid van het worden mijn eigen vijand.



*with my stupid oranje sunnies i bought at Bloker when i was in NL*, *comments on my facebook wall*, *that's my tumblr said "yeaaayy go Netherlands!!" followed by this guy from holland that i followed in tumblr posted the goal moment*

white thoughts

so, tonight i look over my left-behind tumblr. and i found 2 writings from one of my favorite blogger. she always has a nice way to express her feelings, and also i really like the way she puts the words together, make it looks so rich and tasteful somehow. (gaah!! i mix my words in some weird orders. i'll look after it once i'm in a fresh condition).
anyway, she put it just right to express how i feel about movies with happy endings.

if i allow to add my own words to that matter, it will be:
the only reason i cannot get enough of love stories, it's because they help me to feel something that is impossible to happen in real life. i always end up smiling in the end of each movies, but once the credits' out, i will feel this weird empty feeling. a feeling of harsh reality that those beautiful scene can only happen in movies. and that's why it's addictive for me.