23.4.12

Diary Pramugari by Agung Webe



this is the book that i just read. at first i thought this would be a trashy one, the one that i actually bought only because i had nothing else interesting to read. turned out it's one of that book that's hard to put down. 


no, it's not really about living as a flight attendant and be a whore as the tittle said (guess it's just the publisher's selling point) when i sunk myself into it, it's more about life from 3 different views. what i like the most is the view from one character named Anya. she reflects my view in many ways, especially my faith which i always declare as an agnostic. more amazing thing, the main character, Jingga was not a judgmental person. She lives her life as she believes in but accepts Anya's point of view as something interesting to learn about another human being (unlike the judgmental Moslem Organisation which i'm sure you know what oppose all the time in this country.)


here're some qoutes from Anya:


i believe in God, and i don't wanna do anything that harm me or people around me, because that's consider a sin. but when i'm having fun without having to cause someone else's discomfort then it's fine.
it's not that i don't have religion, i just don't approve all legal religions in our country. these religions more like some political tools to gain more followers. the rule of "help those in need in our circle first" is very questionable. why do we have to be picky when it comes to helping others? without religion politics we can help any human kind in need.
why do you do your 5 times a day prayer? is it because you're told to? do feel connected with God when you do it? or is it just because you feel guilty when you don't? why do you feel guilty then?
why are you a moslem? you said it's because your parents are moslem, so that means Islam is your parent's religion and you're just born with it. do you feel like you're really connected to God in Moslem way? i believe religion is our way to God. i have my own way to connect to him also.
Indonesian people who has power tend to show it every time. they're used of having everything served to them on a silver plate. we, who has to serve it must have a bigger understanding. of course we get mad every now and then from the way they treat us, but i think that's when we're being tested of our maturity. 


well, i don't mean to throw in some controversy here. i'm just relieved that the way i see myself, God, the connection and religion turned out to be normal (my agnostic friends are all cool with this view, but some of my extreme moslem friends looked at me like 'oh, you're so diving into hell' look.) 


conclusion, people have their own way. let's live in our own way without judging others thinking that our believe is the best. after all, human, God and religion are so complex. I remember i learned one thing when i was a kid in the Pendidikan Pancasila lesson (Nation's Education) called tenggang rasa--tolerance. i personally think that value aren't apply in this country anymore. 

17.4.12

Bandung, April 14th 2012

So the three of us (and Mocho) gathered at Paviliun then went to sabuga.. too bad Mocho wore tshirt and jeans only so we had a hard time to got him in. but we managed to do that in the end thanks to our Toga and Babar's shirt.



AND HERE COMES THE BIRTHDAY GIRL IN THE MIDDLE!! FINALLY!!! CONGRATULATION.. :*


13.4.12

the past army

thank you. 

it really helped to see things from different point of view. and the fact that you all arrived at the right time without my "mayday" call, that's a huge relieve. thank You for You too, Lord. so this is how you train me and sent me the clues.

12.4.12

Put a back sound i'm ready to burst


(source tumblr)

0% courage led to another misleading conversation that would probably end up in a more blurry picture. Yeah, should have known better, that sense of humor of His that i still don't get. it's my risk He said. It's his risk i said. What do You have to say dear Lord? I don't really fancy this puzzle You have for me. A simple wrong move and i wont be able to turn back and redo my deeds. give me sudoku instead, or anything but this stupid puzzle. Because i can't complete the perfect picture, if You refuse to give me some clue.

4.4.12

(random source)

29.3.12

road block

when your true passion meets with undefined ego.

19.3.12

shut down

when a great friend of yours (the one friend you always have as your back-up plan if things don't work out) called and asked you to accompany him to pick up an engagement ring, usually your normal reaction would be this:

laugh out loud because honestly, you're just very happy for the fact the he intended to stop fooling around and be faithful to one woman only--especially when you and that woman gets along very well.

think for a while after he hung-up and said to yourself "did that just happen?"

the rest is history--quarter life crisis. (mostly because now i must find another back-up plan)

for girls like me, in around my age, with almost similar background, maybe we received wedding invitation once a week. and i'd be lying if i say "no, we don't hear the clock ticking".
no, i'm not the "let's get married right now" kinda girl, in fact, there're lot of things i want to accomplish before i decide to settle down in the end. getting married before i'm 26 was never an option for me. well, i'm still that girl. only this time i got this question inside my head--especially since one of my friend who gotten married said 'go find someone, don't be picky or you'll just get some leftovers' which drew me so close to not talk to her ever again--do you guys(the young married couples) really had to make that kind of judgement?! if that happen to you so fast does that mean that there's something wrong with the rest of us?!! for fuck's sake, for some people that's never even an option and i see them living their free life happily. does that mean they ran out of "leftovers"?!

the term "think before you speak" really does gain a whole new meaning now, isn't it?