some of my closest friends asked me. surprisingly not just one or two people who did that. until i realized that i actually have been quite anti-social lately (one or two months behind).
i guess i'm back to that phase where i just want to avoid "daily conversations" that might happen with the oh-so-popular-topics such as jobs, goals, and love life. not that because i don't have them, only my views on some of that are a little bit different from the popular believes.
some time ago my close friend also have the--more or less--similar wondering, about how other people around her have had their goals set up and know which direction they're going to whilst she's not really there yet. i think i have a defense for that: we can't really judge how slow or left behind we are by comparing ourselves to others. because basically, everybody's different. what's important for me might be less important to some people. my goals could sound like a joke by a 10 years old by some people. some people dreams could be too depressing for me to hear. the point is, diversity is the case. instead of judging i think i'd better appreciate them all and support whatever my friends want to do with their live. i'm sure they know the best. and i hope they treat me the same way in return.
so, lately i'm not laying around wasting time at home, i did a--literally--hard work. here comes the "are you taking your life seriously" judgement, i do some carpenting. i made my own furniture lately from scratch. something that most of my friends will say "you're a designer for fuck's sake, just draw and give it to the real carpenter!" but i can't really do that method. i like experimenting and this is what i'm doing now.
to sum up, i might not be working for a big company, or getting paid. but i'm doing what i'm passionate about and honestly couldn't be happier (i mean come on, how much does a lounge chair cost you these days?? i could make one under Rp. 100K and personalized it) and yes, i do miss my friends.. hope to be seeing them soon enough.. :*