Amazing Adrenalin Rush

So it's been a while since i share anything. i'm busy!! yes, finally i can say that i'm busy and the adjective really reflects on it's literal meaning. these days I've been juggling some stuff:

My Master Thesis

ha! if i could go back to 2011 when the 'Final Project' me was whining about how hard it was to get all the data, i will slap my own head and say "i'ts nothing compare to what you'll be doing in your 2014 Master Thesis"! to get the Theme of your project was easy, the topic was the real challenge. i'm lucky to get two nice counselors and i wont whine about them because they're so awesome, but these awesomeness is exactly what makes their opinion really matters to me. i only want to show them the best, ergo i have to work twice as hard. for my thesis, i have weekly schedule to play with the preschoolers in Temasek International School in Bandung. they're wonderful!

Arvka

i shared about the "drunken ideas" earlier in this blog and this idea finally became reality. so my friends and i has been working on this project for quite a while now. it took a few months and a bit of little misunderstanding to finally got us here. the seven of us are the founder of ARVKA STUDIO and later this month i will also share not just our workplace that i've linked, but also our playground in a blog form. oh oh, we also have shop! which will be revealed later on.

Sihobit

this is my own studio. the good thing about having friends that has the same drive as you but with different kind of ideas and creativity is this, motivate you to work as hard as they are! i've always been scared to start this Sihobit because i don't have enough confident and drive to get me out of my comfort zone. but time is running out and i don't want to be a sloth anymore. so i started experimenting, meet a lot of 'tukang' to help me produce the first series of Sihobit products.

Assistant Lecturing

this doesn't take much time, buuuutttt i got a schedule on Friday morning, which is hell! i spent all my college year to change classes that took place on Friday, and here i am now assisting on Friday. this affect me on my 'going home ' time. i refused to come back to Jakarta if i only have 2 days to spent at home, because it's a waste of the transport money and a waste of my time (traffic on Friday is always unbelievable).

well, those things above creates this adrenalin rush  for me and i'm so exited and scared at the same time. this time i'm not taking a baby step anymore, it has to be a big steady step. these what make life so exiting, isn't it?

don't! just don't.

when your best friend has some troubles with their life, you have two polite options:

listen or make he/she feels better by telling a related bad story you have or others that you've heard that is similar. don't counter their misery by telling your success story bragging that you've never encountered such problem (or ANY problem at all) because your life always going smoothly according to your plan. who are you kidding? everybody got their problem, it's too cliche to say "all is well" every time.

i admit i'm jealous. i'm in a phase where the only words to describe is "let's just do this and see how it turns out" while my best friend seemed to always had it figured out. i know he has his own problems too, and (sue me) if i'd feel better if he share it with me, instead of showing his superman ego and always said "my life is wonderful, as always." i don't know if my selfishness has gone up too high or i'm just a normal human being that's too honest. truth is, i'm too gondok to see him right now, and not sure if i can fake a smile if i see him these days.

i talked about it to Ayu and she got a right phrase to describe it: don't sprinkle salt over my wounds

after effect of being half-drunk

we had a night out last week but apparently not with a lot of money to spent on the alcohol. so we each drew 100.000 IDR (about 10 USD) and bought whatever drinks we could get. my friends are hardcore drinker--we all are--and that much money weren't enough to get us to the level we "wanted".

as usual, every time we drink we would talk about life, love life and anything revolve around it. but this time we talk about future, job consequences, how the real world is really just waiting around the corner to grab us by the throat. 

we went home feeling half-drunk, and slept.

now the consequences after that night, we each woke up the next morning felt like shit. no, not that we had  hangover, but felt like shit about our life. we didn't spent the next day together but apparently each of us had the same facial expression--empty. 

the good part was, that feeling drove us into some kind of the motivation we needed for a kick-start in our lives. and we discussed it sober last night. 

and we shall see where this would take the six of us. 

priorities.

sometimes it got mixed up.
if only people could appreciate others priorities.

a little getaway.

we've been planning to go to Floating Market in Lembang for a while, and since some of us are available (read: nggak puny kegiatan) finally we're able to leave Bandung for a while. tomorrow is also Yasmin's birthday so this "trip" was also her celebration.

Drunk words, sober thoughts.

thank you for postponing the scary world i have to face for now.
thank you for this spark you've put back in my heart.
thank you for these people you sent me.
thank you for my family.
thank you for my life.

thank you, God Almighty

Analogy

"You only get by. It's like you're charging in a different voltage. It'll be charged for a while but the battery will be broken when the time comes."

"Just imagine you're running in a zombie movie... And you're running with a satchel on your shoulder. It might contains food to help you survive, but the dead weight might slow you down. in the end you'll become a zombie too. My advise...loose the dead weight if its not worth your life."

as always, Adnan always has the best way to describe things.