after effect of being half-drunk

we had a night out last week but apparently not with a lot of money to spent on the alcohol. so we each drew 100.000 IDR (about 10 USD) and bought whatever drinks we could get. my friends are hardcore drinker--we all are--and that much money weren't enough to get us to the level we "wanted".

as usual, every time we drink we would talk about life, love life and anything revolve around it. but this time we talk about future, job consequences, how the real world is really just waiting around the corner to grab us by the throat. 

we went home feeling half-drunk, and slept.

now the consequences after that night, we each woke up the next morning felt like shit. no, not that we had  hangover, but felt like shit about our life. we didn't spent the next day together but apparently each of us had the same facial expression--empty. 

the good part was, that feeling drove us into some kind of the motivation we needed for a kick-start in our lives. and we discussed it sober last night. 

and we shall see where this would take the six of us. 

priorities.

sometimes it got mixed up.
if only people could appreciate others priorities.

a little getaway.

we've been planning to go to Floating Market in Lembang for a while, and since some of us are available (read: nggak puny kegiatan) finally we're able to leave Bandung for a while. tomorrow is also Yasmin's birthday so this "trip" was also her celebration.

Drunk words, sober thoughts.

thank you for postponing the scary world i have to face for now.
thank you for this spark you've put back in my heart.
thank you for these people you sent me.
thank you for my family.
thank you for my life.

thank you, God Almighty

Analogy

"You only get by. It's like you're charging in a different voltage. It'll be charged for a while but the battery will be broken when the time comes."

"Just imagine you're running in a zombie movie... And you're running with a satchel on your shoulder. It might contains food to help you survive, but the dead weight might slow you down. in the end you'll become a zombie too. My advise...loose the dead weight if its not worth your life."

as always, Adnan always has the best way to describe things.

Getting old is overrated.

lately i've been busy with some seminar stuff that i have to attend. frankly even though i didn't spent all of my time preparing it, i still lock myself in my dorm room just to "get busy". this cost me not meeting my friends too often. and i haven;t seen all of them in about two or three weeks.

last Monday i got a shock. somebody was actually dismissed themselves from the rest of us. without reason. i chuckled to this because i witness how they tried to hide and took a detour to get to classes just so they won't see us face-to-face. little birdie told us that they avoid us because they're offended and decided just to canceled all their classes so they don't have to see us. mind you, the classes took us 8.5 million rupiah and they want to cancel all those without the money being returned just to AVOID certain people that made them uncomfortable. 

i personally just want to bang their door and ask straightly "do you have a personal problem with me? because believe me, i haven't seen you in three weeks and you treated my like shit all the sudden." but with these people, confrontation only would bring a catastrophe. so i realized no matter how old you are, if you think you're this little kid who need attention, you'll always be that kid that trapped in that big body. 

Bye Bye Youth

my best friend's getting married!! and honestly, i'm happy for him because he married one awesome lady (the one that got my true blessing). wedding picture will come later.

to Adnan and Mila,

although you  two look so tense in the "vow" part, it's passed and we can have the wedding party soon.

Have a long and happy life together, mate!