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My update.

i recently focusing on some stuffs. and they are:

• technical drawing for my final project
• the report for the same shit
• 3D modeling for it as well
• and of course, MOCK -UP

yesterday a "friend" sent me a text message consists of--more or less--this "lit, the final drawing, technical, 3D and so on those supposed to be o n A1 papers right? and how many mock ups DID you made?? 2??" as if she's done with everything and ready to hand out everything to my--our--counselor  next monday. 

i'm not there yet actually. i do a little this and that every day, but don't worry i promised myself i won't make the same mistakes i made on my 2nd preview. this time i'm gonna be ready, not gonna look stupid, won't stuttered and i'll get enough sleep a week before the final preview (sidang). 

5 more weeks!! i think i have enough time to finish it all (trying to keep an optimist thoughts in my head)!!

Square 1

yeah. back to square one. that's the latest news on my final project. this is not a "sad" post, this is a happy post. finally i figured out the best way to straighten that shit. yeayyy~~~ it's true then, you have to let loose and think outside the box and out of order to achieve one good solution.

11 out of 21. that's what happened.

either

i'm in a bad mood or just finally being honest to myself.

i cannot accept that fact. i know i shouldn't be one selfish bitch that only thinks for herself but turned out, it bothers me (i'm human after all). i got nothing left to give or to feel, that's true. i can also accept the fact that life goes on in every one's story. our story has ended and it ended very well, we moved on our own ways and managed to catch up with each other every now and then for old time's sake. but since that day, the day that maybe will change the person you'll become for the next decades, i don't think i may count on you anymore. because that'll be rude. that'll be wrong. that'll be inappropriate.

so good friend, to sum up, i think i'll really gonna miss you. because i figure there'll be no more late night call, no more 'phone a friend', no mojito no more..

i'll try to be happy for you. wish me luck too will you?

without trying

to make it "about me", i just really miss my friends today. Ayu has got a job. Boy decided to stay in Jakarta by the end of the year. Panjang finally moved to Bali for his job.

it's just me and Akbar these days.. and we talked today about how our 'member of the tukang sate shirt' has gone one by one. no more karaoke together, no more ngejus, no morenyampah, no more lula. even if there is, it cannot happen altogether the same time with all of them.

i wish someday, in years to come we can still hang out the way we used to during our campus years. maybe they all grew up and i haven't, but seriously, tonight, i really miss them all.

count down: 8 weeks

until i become one free being who can do anything i want (read: endless holiday until further notice)..

i made a weekly schedule on my wall in order to remind me that the finish line can be counted by my fingers. i got a lot of help lately since i got amazing friends and one amazing counselor. not to forget the "revelation" from "god" in the entertainment department.

now it's time for me to put my game face on and i hope you all will wish me luck, and keep suporting me until i pass the finish line.. there will be "makan-makan" for Boi, Ayu, Babar, Panjang (if he's back from Bali) and Kun in the end if i got a perfect score in this endless-annoying-yet-addictive-game. i promise. i cannot do any of these without them.

my new "to do" calendar

a little "help" from Ayu.. she was hoping these could pump-up my spirits. yeah rite! thanks anyway chinca~~

my counceling book. full of annoying craps.

my desktop. and on going application (video) judge all you want. i don't care. it makes me happy, that's what important.

so... wish me luck.

사 랑 해 요~~